How I Began Taking My Nude Body

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The Narrative Of The Semi Naked College Party That Helped In Taking My Naked Body:
Taking My Nude Body – I have always been self conscious about my body. I was never able to walk around comfortably at school for anxiety about being made fun of. My body was something to be hidden, shameful and god forbid – revealed in public.
During high school, I started working on improving my self esteem. I worked on my positive affirmations and I told myself everyday that was exquisite, even if I didn’t believe it. As the days turned into weeks, I started to discover that looking at my nude body in the mirror was becoming easier. I started to feel more and more comfortable being naked (by myself). That said, the thought of someone else seeing my naked body was still not an alternative. All this changed once I got to college.
Accepting My Nude Body
as soon as I started school, I felt overwhelmed by the amount of folks I considered wonderful. It looked like everyone was thin, confident and appealing. How was I going to survive here???
I talked with some close friends about the problem. My buddies asked me what I thought of folks who did not do their make up every morning or who weren’t thin enough to be a model. I told them I didn’t believe any differently of them and that they were only people to me. My friends asked me why I believed that people would think otherwise of me. I didn’t have an answer.
Subsequently it came to me Most folks usually do not care what you look like. And if they do, who cares! If they did not like my appearance, they didn’t need to appear. After that, my confidence increased. It was a slow process, but it was working.
I ‘d never been comfortable attending celebrations at my university. So many of them were pajama parties, knickers celebrations as well as naked parties. If I was just starting to feel comfortable looking at my nude body, how was I going to show it to anyone else?
Then came the day after I was invited to a college Halloween party. The flyer said “less is more if you know what I mean.” My buddies had helped me so much in raising my self esteem which I thought, “why not!” That night, I had my first experience with social nudity. I wore some risque lingerie as my Halloween costume. Virtually everything was revealing! I was afraid people were going to look at me like some sort of freak. I was afraid they were going to laugh and tell me to go home. But they didn’t. Just about everyone else was dressed like I was. Some were even fully naked and a few were covered in nothing but body paint. They were all just having a great time – partying and laughing. It was a great evening. I left the party feeling more assured than ever. My naked body, or at least most of it, was seen by strangers, yet no one laughed or ran away in terror.

I do not know if I ‘ll ever rid myself of my body image issues. Nor am I confident that I ‘ll ever be able to look at my naked body with complete recognition. What I do understand is that my first experience with public nudity was . One that helped me in my continuing process of raising my self esteem and self-acceptance (if not “body love”).
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